Revelation of Creativity

Another video and more evolution within myself. This journey of offering my creativity on a grander scale. I'm still getting used to the idea. This last video, like the last one, brought up many fears in me and allowed for a spectacular release of energy and rigidity that had been lingering for decades.

Putting time restraints on myself, holding onto ideas and pressures of feeling I needed to create "for" others, really felt limiting to my creativity. I realized I didn't feel free in this process. All my work was clouded with a feeling of resistance and denial. Denial to myself. That is not the way my creativity flows, which is usually effortlessly. It wasn't my authentic self. My authentic energies are released and felt when I'm spontaneously creating. Not when I'm forcing myself to create because of a deadline I've set myself or when thinking of what I think is expected of me.

Morphed Urbanator welcomes you to my "Light Painting Photography."

(Photographs that I took back in 2017 and have not had the opportunity to share till now. The perfect project and timing for them.)

I had completed the video with just the electronic music months ago! But then my partner suggested it would sound great with my vocals on it and said "people want to hear your voice" and I agreed. At first I was ultra resistant and was happy with just the music. But then as time went on I too felt I wanted to add vocals and was open to it. So I "tried" to add vocals and nothing sounded right. I was having trouble channelling to the music. I did this for a few weeks and then let it sit. I was feeling frustrated with myself and pressured as I wasn't releasing anything, even though it was sitting there ready to go without vocals. I was grappling with all my inner feelings of not being good enough or giving viewers what they expected. I paralyzed myself. Shut down production.

Then last week I felt that I was in the flow and I channelled with the music 4 or 5 times and found some great editing opportunities. I made the cut and played it for my partner. It didn't sound right to him so I "tried" again. It sounded horrible! I was so frustrated and felt down as I had worked so hard on the edit last week and I felt it was ready.

We went for a walk and I released my fears with tears. Letting go the creative process that was unfolding. My partner so lovingly embraced me with support. We came home and then both had a wondrous revelation to both of our creative processes. When we force creativity (even if it's great work) the process is not a "feel good" process. And we were both feeling the pressures of this in our own work. We let go of our fears and expectations of ourselves.

After this conversation we both felt a great sense of relief. I told him I felt good with my original edit. A great deal of respect and understanding came to light in both of us as I said it. I then felt pulled to watch last week's vocal edit once more with him. His perspective and appreciation for it changed. We experienced the video in a completely new way. We enjoyed it and felt our self pressures melting away! Seeing the beauty in the creativity when we are free.

There is no rush! There is no perfect! Creativity flows with no effort when we allow ourselves to be in touch with our intuition and heart felt space. I'm now entering a new phase with my creativity and I'm excited to head forward. Especially living these days that we are experiencing together. It's so wonderful to see so many of us creating online! What magical ripples of love and creation we are spreading all over the world.

I'm already onto my next project! Feeling pumped and good about it!

With Harmonic Love I present to you Morphed Urbanator :

(A great time to release this as we are all experiencing our urban jungles in new ways now. May you find appreciation for the homes they provide for us.)

Take great care of yourselves. With Love.

MaJesstic Source

Synthuous Verses - An Abstract Film

UNKNOWN CHARACTERS

"What am I looking at?" is one of the highest compliments/questions anyone could give me when asking about my photography. My favourite type of photography is abstract. I love to push the limits and have one stretch their own perception of reality.

One of my abstract photos for example...

Abstract Notions

There is so much of this world that is unknown and mysterious. These things often frighten us. They feel unnatural and there is usually massive resistance to let them in.

The response I often get to my photography is "I can't see it. It's out of focus. What is it?" And this is paired with perplexed and uneasy facial contortions! I adore this reaction. For the unseen and the unknown is something I'm very familiar with. For when I close my eyes, I can see so much more.

I enjoy bringing that forward for people to experience in this visual reality. I feel that in the abstract there is much to be unlocked and found. I find abstract visuals allow the opportunity to explore the unknown. To possibly expand one's own reality and concepts of what we think we know.

The Film - Creative Process

Synthuous Verses (Yes, I made up a word, that's not a spelling mistake!) was extremely fun to create and I'm looking forward to making more abstract films like this one. (I already have tons of footage to work with!!!)

Synthuous Verses' music was one improvised take and flowed so effortlessly. I've been learning my new keyboard and had not played with this particular synth till then. So, during the flow of the improvisation I was learning a ton of things about how this particular synth was working and how I could morph it as I went along. I also learned part way through that the left hand was different than the right hand keys. Therefore as I started to play with both hands, it changed the sound completely and I was thrilled to continue the flow with even more dimensions and textures.

Initially I had lost the recording as the computer froze and I had to shut it down before I could save it. Thankfully there was a backup file of the recording that I managed to locate. (I'm also learning how to use my recording software.) There are no vocals in this video. This was a creative journey in itself. I completed the film without vocals and was happy with it. It was my partner who wanted to see if I could come up with some vocals for it. I explored and played with this idea for a few weeks.

There were so many resistances that came up along the way. I got sick and my physical body broke down at the time. I couldn't sing. Then when I could, I was not happy with anything that was coming out. There were many emotions around playing with vocals to this track. I was afraid it wasn't good enough without vocals and thought it "must" need them. To please viewers. In the end, my initial intuition still prevailed. It's ready! But I'm also so glad I explored the possibilities both with the film and with myself!

I'm excited to share this with you and I loved the creative process as I learned a lot about myself and all the fears I have about sharing it. I am just so excited to continue to follow my passions and have fun exploring with myself, my partner, and with those of you who want to experience with me.

*All content was filmed, composed, recorded and edited by myself - MaJesstic Source*

Without further ado, here is SYNTHUOUS VERSES!!!

NEXT FILM!

The next film is going to be completely different and I'm looking forward to that release too! I have many different aspects to my creativity and I'm really happy to be sharing it. Thank you all who give support and love as I dive even deeper. With you all.

Harmonic Vibrations to you.

MaJesstic Source

A Dust of Thought - A Day of Appreciation

Flecks of Feather

Flakes of Infinity

Throws of Gusting

Tender Thrushes

Of The Beating

Fleshed out Notions

Untethered and Light

Purposeful Drifter

In the Unbound of Everything

Swift Wisps of Shedding

Within Renewed Restoration

The Wonderment of Essence

The Trembles of True

Over the Supple Strengths

Of the Forever Residing

The Dusting of the Rose

"Dusting the Rose"

Writing and photo by MaJesstic Source

HARMONIC HELLO!!!

I felt like sharing a poem as my first written blog since my launch of my site and YouTube channel. I am enjoying a peaceful day of appreciation today. For everyone and all things in life that I adore. As I work on my next video release I find myself feeling so abundant with admiration for all that has lead me here. To this day. To this new release of my creativity. Allowing my energies to flow through all different forms of expression. Today I felt like writing and sharing a poem. A reflection of this iconic day.

As I let go of the imprinted ideals and meaning to this day, I embrace the joys of gratitude and appreciation for all that is in my life. Just as we all have, the challenging times have been the sun and water that have helped me grow. Like a beautiful rose. With it's thorns of protection and supple but strong expression as a gorgeous flower. Are we all roses?!

This day has a name but everyday shares it's notions and has deeper meaning than we sometimes care to remember. May this day be no bigger or more important than yesterday or tomorrow. The notion of love on this day can act as a reminder that everyday carries the opportunity to love and be loved in a multitude of ways. Whatever your heart desires.

My voice and body is still in recovery from being under the weather a week ago but I'm so excited as the next video is near to being done! Stay tuned for its release. It gives me such joy to share my creativity that is ready to be shared.

I hope you enjoyed this poem.

Loving Vibrations to you all,

MaJesstic Source